Alter Ego.

The Leather Satchel co. Giveaway.

2012-02-08T12:52:00.000+07:00

Lets join The Leather Satchel co. Giveaway. by Devorelebeaumonstre ! Just go to this link , and done those simple things :D

photo by Devorelebeaumonstre

Black Pitch; xXx Holic

2012-02-05T14:15:00.000+07:00

currently listening @ Utada Hikaru - Sakura Drops

In the past, I've revealed some manga that i'd like to read in here. But i late to realized one of my favorite manga, xXx Holic by Clamp was completed. Back then when i was in high school, i look at it a glance and found something strange with it style of drawing. You can see people there was drawn too long, the proportions made them so tall. And i feel no desire to read it. But one day, somehow i'm captivated with details of laces, and dark vibe yet classy on the 1st cover of it. I'm curious. What story are they served with that dark essence? Moreover, in my country, the manga is labelled in "Adult", which means there will be a complex story, and more metaphor meaning. This post is including Spoiler, if you don't want spoiler so i recommend you to step back and go to this link for reading online.

The story begin with a high school boy named Kimihiro Watanuki who disturbed to see supernatural creature, he meets with Yuuko Ichihara, a witch who owns a wish-granting shop. Watanuki requests to have his ability to see spirits removed and, as payment, Yuuko hires him to work in the shop, resulting in various supernatural encounters. The story developed into valuable cases of people who wants to grant their wish. From each case, we can conclude moral things in it. The dark vibe of witchcraft things mixed up with old culture in Japan equals something interesting. All of the folklore, and the don'ts thing bringing up explanation that rarely we consider of.

Yuuko always said "There is no coincidence, and that every single action and decision is inevitable, because without them, other related events in the future could not happen". Watanuki little by little learns about witchcraft from each case, and suddenly realized that he didn't know why his parents died, and from whom he learnt to cook. All he remembered just the people who know the secret of his power. He acknowledge his power in dreams, he meets Doumeki's Grandfather who teach him to solve problems within dreaming. One day, Yuuko dissapear. And suddenly all of people who granted their wish, forgot about her. Full of sadness, Watanuki run to the shop, and suddenly all turns pitch black. He meets Yuuko, and she told him that this is the ends. The time that had been halted has merely begun to move once more, she should not even exist, should have been gone a long time ago, she was trapped within that halted time for the sake of two world of two futures. The choices has been made, and time has begun to move once more. She was afraid, before even Watanuki were even born, she was already dead. Watanuki cried and thinking that it is a dream, Yuuko ensure him that this is no dream. Watanuki insisted to granted Yuuko's wish, and the wish is for him to go on existing. He promised, and have a thought about if dreams can come true by wishing hard enough, he wants to meet her again and decided to stayed at the shop as long as it takes for her.

Times go ahead, Watanuki's power is growing stronger. He became the next owner of the shop, and granted people's wish by dreaming because he promised that won't leave the shop. And one day he had a dream about butterfly, which is Yuuko presence. In that dream, Yuuko bringing a cage with a bird inside, and opening the cage's gate, letting the bird fly away with the butterfly. This is a sign that Yuuko let Watanuki to leave the shop, since bird is Watanuki's sign. This dream is Yuuko's, and need a hundred years to appears.

More than 100 years is passed, he's not aging because not leaving the shop. He talked this dream with someone that I thought Doumeki at first, but since he said "You really do look just like him. Your great grandfather." i realized that he is Doumeki's great grandchild.

He decides to continue waiting for her, although he has become able to leave the shop if he wants to.

The gloomy ending makes my day full of sadness too. Watanuki was sick of pain of love, and unending time of waiting. Besides, Yuuko is dead. How long he will wait anymore?

This manga have 2 season of Anime too. However, the story is tied with Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicles. So it best to read it to knowing more the storyline. Actually Watanuki and Syaoran (in Tsubasa Reservoir) was one entity. Their parents dividing him into two entities who lived in two world, to make them keep existing. So if Watanuki died, Syaoran will be died too, and vice versa. Thus Yuuko once said that people are the same but just living in a different dimension. I wonder who is Sakura for Watanuki? Is that Yuuko probably his mother? Well, Clamp is really a great mangaka. :)

I'll bringing up Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicles review in the other post, but not until me done my final exam :) Still didn't complete to read it though. Am i an Otaku? Haha i don't think so, but i do like Japan and manga :D

There's no coincidence, what's left is Hitsuzen..
Cheers,

Ande.

Panti Jompo dan pelajaran yang tak ternilai.

2012-02-04T23:56:00.001+07:00

currently listening @ Selena Gomez & The Scene - Love You Like a Love Song

Oke gue tau ini bakal jadi postingan yang panjang, but i'm sure it worth to read.

Selamat malam semuanya! haha Lagi lagi gue nulis blog pas malem minggu. I rarely have activity on saturday night, actually. And then, i just wanna tell you one of my experience not a long time ago..

Jadi, karena dapet tugas Character Building buat mengunjungi panti sosial buat ngasi bantuan, gue dan yang lain pun berangkat di hari yang cerah itu. Beberapa hari sebelumnya, temen gue uda survey di salah satu Panti Jompo daerah Jakarta Barat dan membuat surat izin berkunjung. Berbagai macem barang uda kita bawa. Mulai dari pampers, buah, beras, dan banyak lagi. Sesampainya disana, kita menuju Head Officenya buat minta izin masuk. Disambut sama oma kece judes (yang kayaknya ketua yayasan), dia pun mengecek surat izin dari kampus.

Surat izinnya pun simple, cuma ada keterangan nama, dan jurusan tiap anak. Enggak mendetail seperti surat izin observasi bikin thesis, ataupun penelitian lainnya. Karena bahkan dosen gue pun cuma bilang : "Kalian disana cuma membantu membahagiakan mereka aja, bahkan sepertinya tidak memerlukan surat izin. Karena kalian hanya menghibur dan mendengarkan cerita mereka."

Oma judes ini gak ngebolehin kami masuk, dengan alasan bahwa kami gak punya surat izin resmi seperti yg lainnya. Dia pun menunjukkan beberapa surat yang ditujukan buat Thesis dan sebagainya. Dia insisted melarang kami masuk. Gue mencoba menjelaskan dengan segala cara. Bahwa kehadiran kami disini bukannya untuk thesis, tapi cuma ditugaskan untuk memberi bantuan saja. Apa memberi bantuan adalah suatu kesalahan yang harus ditolak? Dia tetap bilang "Walaupun kalian cuma ingin membantu, tapi kami juga punya aturan. Kami tidak bisa membiarkan kalian beramai ramai masuk begitu saja. Kami juga memiliki jadwal.". What the hell. So arrogant.

Dengan penuh kesal, kami keluar dari panti tersebut dan mencoba mencari Panti Jompo lain disekitarnya. Selagi menunggu, gue liat ada pengunjung datang yang membawa mobil, dan mengeluarkan berdus dus mi instan dan beberapa karung beras. Mereka langsung dipersilahkan masuk dan disambut baik. Betapa bencinya gue melihat itu semua. Kenapa sih, niat baik orang malah dihalangi? Diskriminasi antara donatur kaya dan kami pelajar yang seadanya. Entah kenapa gue merasa benci banget. Benci banget.

Setelah gue nunggu lama, akhirnya gue berangkat ke Panti Jompo lain yang jaraknya lumayan. Itupun temen gue bolak balik jemput naik motor (karena motor cuma 2, sedangkan total manusia ada 11). Sampailah gue di Panti Jompo ini. Mungkin karena sepertinya panti ini dikelola pemerintah, vibe nya beda dari Panti Werdha barusan yang terkesan dispesialisasikan. Disini kami langsung disambut baik oleh pegawai berseragam safari dan dipersilahkan mengobrol dengan oma dan opa yang berada disana.

Kami berpencar. Gue dan temen temen mendatangi Opa bermata sipit yang sedang duduk dan hampir menyelesaikan makanannya. Ia terlihat lebih bugar diantara penghuni lain dan terkesan lebih ramah. Beliau bernama Opa Robert. Usut punya usut, beliau masih memiliki anak dan cucu. Bahkan ulangtahunnya kemarin dirayakan di restoran salah satu mall besar, beserta cucu dan menantunya. Refleks gue terheran heran. Bagaimana bisa seseorang yang masi keep in touch dengan keluarganya, tapi malah duduk sendirian disini.

Sungkan untuk bertanya langsung, gue pun bertanya tentang kesehatannya. Dan lama kelamaan ia bercerita kenapa ia bisa berada disana. Opa Robert mengalami struk dan sempat dirawat di rumah sakit beberapa minggu, sebelum ia ditempatkan di panti. Hebatnya, ia melawan penyakit struk yang dideritanya dengan selalu mencoba menggerakkan bagian yang lumpuh. Sulit, tapi dipaksakan. Dan sendirian. Tak terbayang bagaimana ia mencoba survive sendirian hingga akhirnya bisa berjalan lagi seperti sekarang. Gue bahagia mendengarnya, sekaligus benci. Ya, gue benci. Kemana saja sanak family nya selama ini? Begitu teganya memasukkan Kakeknya, Ayahnya yang telah membesarkan dan mendidik selama ini, ke panti jompo. Sendirian. Dan dapat tertawa tawa saat merayakan ulangtahun kakeknya. Apakah sangat mahal untuk membeli ranjang, dan memberi perhatian khusus pada seseorang yang telah merawatmu semenjak bernafas di dunia ini! What an insane!

Gue beranjak ke penghuni lain, disinilah gue bertemu dengan Eyang Sri, dia berasal dari Jogja. Dari cara bicaranya saja gue sudah mendengar sesuatu yang berbeda. Dia pintar. Ragu untuk bercerita, akhirnya ia luluh setelah beberapa lama berbincang. Harusnya saat ini ia masih meneruskan kelas studi S2 Elektronya di Trisakti, setelah sebelumnya menyelesaikan pendidikan S1 di salah satu institut bandung. Dulu ayahnya adalah seorang Polisi, dalam didikannya, ia yang merasa sebagai warga negara yang telah membayar pajak berhak mendapatkan salah satu fasilitas pemerintah yaitu panti sosial. Ia memiliki pernikahan yang cukup harmonis, dikaruniai anak perempuan dan kemudian disusul dengan anak laki-laki. Bahkan ia sempat diberikan BMW oleh suaminya sebagai hadiah atas lahirnya anak laki laki. Anak perempuannya bersekolah di Tarakanita semenjak taman kanak hingga menengah. Ia selalu mengantar jemput anak gadisnya selama sekolah dengan mengendarai sendiri mobilnya. Hingga anaknya memutuskan untuk melanjutkan kuliah di London. Setelah melakukan kunjungan beberapa kali, si anak gadis ini menjanjikan jika Eyang Sri sudah berumur 60 tahun nanti (bebas Visa setelah 60 tahun), akan diajak tinggal bersama di London.

Kenyataan berbalik dengan harapan. Sang gadis meneruskan S2 di London dan bertemu pangeran impian. Setelah menikah dengan warga negara asing tersebut, Eyang Sri berkunjung dan menemukan kejanggalan. Sang gadis telah berubah. Entah karena pengaruh suaminya atau apa, sempat ia mengatakan pada ibunya : "Mama kok minta upeti sama aku?". Betapa terpukulnya Eyang Sri mendengar perkataan anaknya. Semua janji manis sang anak hancur berantakan. Kemudian, sesampainya di Jakarta, anak laki-lakinya memukul Eyang Sri dengan besi stir mobil karena berdebat tentang suatu hal. Eyang Sri yang terpukul, terlintas untuk pergi dari rumah saat sedang melakukan rutinitas lari pagi. Ia tidak membawa uang sedikit pun. Ia berjalan dan terus berjalan. Bahkan kerabatnya pun sepertinya tidak menyetujui keberadaan Eyang Sri yang menumpang tinggal untuk sementara. Suaminya telah meninggal, ia tidak memiliki siapapun saat ini. Semua uang, tanah, rumah dan mobil dikuasai oleh anak anaknya. Ia tidak memegang harta sedikitpun. Sambil terus berjalan tanpa arah, ia berdoa pada Tuhan. Karena ia yakin Tuhan akan menolongnya. Akhirnya ia menemukan panti sosial ini, dan bergabung selama hampir 3 bulan.

Karena penasaran, gue bertanya, jika suatu hari nanti anaknya datang dan meminta ia untuk pulang, apakah ia bersedia atau tidak. Dengan keyakinan ia menjawab, "Untuk apa? Toh kalau nantinya saya akan dibuang lagi, maka lebih baik saya tinggal disini. Meskipun tidak layak, tapi akan lebih menyakitkan jika berada bersama orang seperti mereka."

Akhirnya gue dan temen temen pun pulang. Hari itu, gue menemukan pelajaran luar biasa yang gak bisa gue dapetin dari tempat kursus manapun. Pelajaran hidup. Langsung dari sumbernya. Gue bersyukur, betapa beruntungnya memiliki orangtua yang sangat menyayangi orangtuanya. Ini menjadi pelajaran mahal. Di satu sisi, Opa Robert, gue sangat menyayangkan sikap keluarganya. Mereka jelas jelas masih mampu. Dan seharusnya, memiliki kesadaran untuk merawat kakeknya sendiri. Bukannya gue gak mau Opa Robert ada di panti ini, tapi, menurut gue, masih banyak orang lain yang lebih membutuhkan, seperti Eyang Sri, disamping orang yang menitipkan anggota keluarganya disini. Gue gak bisa menebak konflik apa yang sebenarnya sedang dialami keluarga Eyang Sri hingga anak anaknya bertindak sedemikian rupa. Tapi satu hal yang gue tau, se-buruk buruknya orang tua, mereka tetap orang tua lo. Respect them.

Gue jadi inget salah satu cerita di The Kitchen Soup for kids, dimana ada seorang anak yang membuat list bayaran atas setiap tugas yang dibebankan, seperti menyapu, membereskan rumah dan sebagainya. Lalu sang ibu menuliskan di balik kertas itu;

Melahirkanmu : Gratis

Membersihkan kotoranmu saat bayi : Gratis

Menyusui dan memberi makanmu : Gratis

Membesarkanmu hingga saat ini : Gratis

Lalu sang anak pun tersenyum, dan menulis di kertasnya, LUNAS.

Kasih Ibu sepanjang masa. Dalam agama gue pun, menjawab pertanyaan orangtua dengan "Ah," saja sudah berdosa, apalagi bernada tinggi. Selalu berlemah lembut dan sopan lah kepada dua orangtuamu. Jangan menyakiti hatinya, karena bahkan kau tidak dapat membayangkan betapa sulitnya mereka membesarkanmu, dan melihatmu melepaskan segala ego tanpa pertimbangan.

Oh, dan satu lagi, gue menyarankan pada para istri untuk memiliki minimal satu rekening bank yang bahkan tidak seorang pun tahu bahwa kamu memilikinya. Just in case untuk menghindari kejadian yang tidak diinginkan. :)

Always Love your Parents, no matter they are..

Cheers, Ande.

Jokes are Jokes but still, need boundaries.

2012-02-02T22:23:00.002+07:00

Me typically a girl who likes jokes and laugh. I mean, who's in the earth who doesn't like to laugh. It's a good feeling. But basically i'm an introvert and such individualist, i tried to blend with others though, and it feels nice. When you kinda comfort with your friends, you will laugh often to their jokes, absolutely. And making some dirty jokes of yourself, just for laugh, for kidding only. But still, it becomes different when the jokes is out line. I mean, those dirty jokes or naughty jokes among your friends being public on the social networking, perhaps. It will be definitely a different story.

For me, i just tell several people about bad side or corny jokes only to people who close with me. And to be honest, i feel weird when the jokes is being overwhelmed until other people who shouldn't have known, know. In social network we have so much friends, family, aunt, cousin, mommy, daddy, brother, sister, even your crush; When one day they read one of your jokes is being told by your friend. What the hell they will judge you for something that doesn't really matter like a joke? Oh my.

I still have a shame, you know. For letting people knowing my jokes is a way more embarrassing than tell it myself.
Oh, come on. Can't you see the situation?

Jokes are jokes. But still, need boundaries.

you're the One.

2012-01-10T19:32:00.000+07:00

Playing with Jacob when had a short holiday at home recently, and capture this green grass :D

Happy New Year 2012 for all of you! :D
May Alloh bless us always, and i hope this year will be better..
Be more "knowing" of yourself, truly know what you want, and dividing between what you want and need.
you're the One. Don't ever underestimated yourself. We both know that we can do it. All of good intentions just need one word : Start. Let's start to be a better person, a best one.
Stay healthy on this weather pals!

Cheers,

Ande.

Free your mind.

2011-12-31T13:00:00.002+07:00

Hello, my friend. Have you ever pretending to be somewhat you aren't? Don't you tired? When are you willing to stop? Well, i know it's like trapped, to be something you don't want to. Acting like it's okay. Everything's fine. But i thought that it's kinda like putting a time bomb inside your heart, that could be explode when you can't stand it anymore. Whether you want it or not, the impact is sure getting on you. So much situations. When someone is prohibited you to do this and that, although you thought nothing's wrong there. When you can't speak out about what you liked, what are you interesting at, comments, tell about what you feel. Sometimes, all we want is screaming out loud and crying because of the heavy burden. For can not live as happily as the normal people do. Can not be like, the real me.

People forced us to do what they want, instead for receiving what we are. It's somewhat killing. Carving your heart to be as hard as stone. Cold. Couldn't sense what supposed to be happen. It hurts, but the pain keeps continued even we always cried. Even if we're all going insane, this pain still happened. Everytime. It's like circle of satan. Once you're in , you always want to leave but you can't.

All of us is waiting. Waiting for an oncoming hope of freedom. Acknowledge of yourself. Free your mind. Be yourself. Stop pretending to be kind, stop pleasing others. Think of your self respect. Stop hurting yourself from always do what people want you to do. Move on your own. You're not a trash that someone could easily put a bad words on. You're a perfect gift from God. You're the best. Encourage yourself. I know you can do it. God always there for you, even if the others not. Believe yourself and God. Do not surrender to fight your right. We are free soul. Don't bother cramming your pure heart with negative words. They couldn't affect you. You choose what the decision of yourself. It's okay if you have a mistake or two. We all did mistakes. But what's matter is wake up. Keep go ahead. What passed is just a past. Now it's time to do our way. Our own way. Don't let anyone influencing you, let the heart told you.

Just be yourself.

Lily Casablanca

2011-12-12T00:38:00.000+07:00

Hello all, i'm not really in a good condition now, having a headache while writing this post hehe Well picture above is my pic using my Canon 550D (Jacob, for short :p) with some post processing. This flower actually, Lily Casablanca was my gift for mom as her birthday present. I bought this because they have a little similarity on their name :) But still, my mom doesn't like the smell of this flower hahaha Is it good? Tell me your comment below :)

Be Healthy, pals!

Forever is only the beginning

2011-12-09T12:20:00.000+07:00

Caution, this post is dominantly talking about Breaking Dawn Part 1 movie, so if you don't like Spoiler, well, just be ready :p
Last Tuesday i was watching Twilight Saga - Breaking Dawn Part 1 with my bf *wow, finally :D *

The Tickets !

Forever is only the beginning, well the movie was quite made me mezmerized. So much close up scenes, straight into Jacob and Edward face which is made me so AWW AWW *Can't Blink* >.<

There are several soundtrack from Twilight that used again such as Flightless Bird by Iron and Wine at Bella's Wedding, and some instrumental which is made the scene more alive to me. To be honest i didn't really like the soundtrack of any Twilight Saga Series except The Twilight. Dunno why, Twilight's Soundtrack is just perfect on my ears and i think it was supported the emotion of scenes itself.
In Breaking Dawn Part 1, i saw so much cool graphic when Edward's venom infiltrating Bella's tissue, when the werewolf Jacob had a fight with the pack, Bella's thin body when pregnant, and so on. Bella's wedding was just perfect! i wish i have a private wedding like Bella :( And Edward was so kind to Bella! He really really love her, and didn't want to make Bella hurt even they were married :( *Truthfully this is a little shaking me, because i was Team Jacob before :p * And the presence of Jacob is sooo, uhm, what to say, we can say it i'm like being overwhelmed with him HAHAHA So breathtaking! :p Well i don't like to see Jacob's tears though. and i don't really like when Jacob is imprinted with Nessie haha when i read the books i was like : "Jacob must be with Bella!" *yelling at myself :p* But the other opportunity (If Bella with Jacob) haunted me, how if Jacob suddenly met his imprint girl? So he will leave Bella? Oh, that will be another story, and i don't want it to be a sad story :p *Maybe i should develop this kind of my imaginary thingy Lol*
After all i'm very satisfied with the movie :) And Seth was cool too >.< So, the conclusion is, you all must watch it! xD

and i have one big announcement, proudly present, please welcome :

My new baby named Jacob <3

HAHAHA Alhamdulillah, finally what i always wanted is here, after all of the hardwork to saving, finally i bought my own DSLR (with a help from Daddy, actually :D) and i give him a name, yes a name! His name is Jacob. :) Why Jacob? Well, simply because he is black :p (do you get what i mean? In Twilight, Jacob complete name was Jacob Black, so i though they have a correlation :p ) Sorry for the non High Quality of picture above, cuz i take it from Blackberry Camera which is just so - so :p Hope that i could make a good artsy photos! Still learning ;)

I hope you a good day all :D

Farewell Khuntoria :'(

2011-11-30T23:13:00.000+07:00

Oh well, i had blurry eyes this evening by watching Khuntoria final episode :'( If you don't know about Khuntoria, lemme tell ya a bit. Khuntoria is one part of Korean Reality Show named We Got Married. Consisted of Nickhun from 2PM boyband and Victoria from f(x) Girlband, they made it Khuntoria for short as combination of their name. They were together as (fake) Hubby and wife for 1 year and 3 months (456 Days), so much memories had been created, and it's so sad that they have to be separated because of their busy job. Truthfully they are the sweetest couple among the others to me, because it's like i could feel the emotions of their two. and maybe it would be nice if they were in a real relationship, Amin! They were so good together, you know. i wonder how it feels when in the future they have a new bf/gf, were they will remember each other? Aaaaa, so sad :( They were just perfect! in their skinship and how the way they declared love to each other would make every single person who see it become jealous HAHAHA Well then, i recommended you to watch it, especially for those who like a romantic scene xD

this is when they gonna make a prewed photos

One of their Prewedding Photos

photo at the wedding ceremony

Honeymoon at Maldives (aww, so jealous!)

they love to cook!

Farewell hug at their Last Episode HUAAA !

Anyway i curious for another couples too, but still don't have much time for it haha But i recommend you to watch these Korean Drama too :
- My Princess
- City Hunter
- My Girlfriend is Gumiho
Those have so many romantic comedy scenes!
i have done my mid exam, and i'm not satisfied with the result, i didn't gave the max when study, i must admit it. dunno why inspiration always come when i had exam *sigh

Wish you always happy folks!
Happy watching!

Sims Social on Facebook

2011-11-21T22:17:00.002+07:00

Gotcha!
well i'm doing a quick post between my mid exam. i have a 5 combo - 5 subjects that have no gap for each day zzz
Since i'm so hypnotized with this Sims Social on Facebook (i'm drooling to see several nice houses of friends) i can't take my fingers off to improve my crib (Oh my, i'm so insane in the middle of exam) and couldn't patient enough too wait my energy filled up and one day my bf found a website that give a free giveaways! YEAY!!
This is helping me a lot! You have to be quick, because there is a limitation day, even hours for each free gift. You better check at the website everyday (like me :p). Just Click This for the link :) Hope you like it! (Btw, is this counted as a cheat? :p Maybe it's Giveaway, but whatever it is the thing that important is : that link is really useful :D)
Oh, and here the progress of my crib,

p.s the blank room, i still don't have any idea to fill it up with :p

just tell me what do you think of my crib. Is it good enough? hehe
And then i have a Superb BIG NEWS, but can't tell y'all now, so, see ya in the next post!

Let's study! :p

Glimpse

2011-11-17T23:38:00.000+07:00

Currently Listening @ Random of Korean Movies Soundtrack

owwww, i'm such a bad blogger :( for not updating my blog for a long time huhu
and as always, i'm typing this post in the middle of mid exam *Fiuhhhh

Anyway now i'm in the new dorm, yeayyy :D it's nearer from my University and more pleasant. But still, since this is a mix dorm (not divided by Dorm of Girls nor Boys), it's a little bit noisy. But i'm a nonchalant person after all :p

But then, HAPPY BIRTHDAY to meeeeee! (LOL my birthday was at 22nd Oct for your info :p) i'm 20 now (it's such an embarrassing to talk about age, for a million reason :p) My mom called me at 12 AM, right when the date changed into 22nd. So much responsibility will be burdened, and i hope to not pretending to be mature anymore :p

There are so much that i wanna share to you all :D But maybe i'll divide it to several post so it can be clear :D
Right now is H-9, 9 days more to get something i always wanted xD
Couldn't tell you all until it comes xD I can't wait :D
I hope you all a good day! (and i hope me can pass mid exam with goodness too :D)

Ciao!

Tips memilih kosan ^^

2011-09-14T21:33:00.002+07:00

Pertama tama, gue ucapkan selamat bagi seluruh anak SMA yang berhasil masuk Universitas, entah itu fakultas yang elo mau ataupun enggak hehe
Bagi yang tidak memutuskan untuk duduk di bangku kuliah juga gak masalah sob, gak ada yang tau jalan hidup seseorang kecuali Tuhan, yang penting kalian semangat kerja keras! :D

Nah bagi kalian yang baru aja masuk Dorm, atau lagi cari kosan, berikut gue kasi beberapa tips yang bisa dipertimbangkan sebelum memilih kosan..

- Putuskan sebelumnya, apakah lo mau memilih kosan yang tinggal jalan kaki dari kampus, atau mau yang agak jauh dengan pertimbangan adanya kendaraan umum menuju kampus.
- Pertimbangkan butuh kamar yang ber AC atau enggak. Pertimbangan lo bisa dari budget atau cuaca. Misalnya lo uda berada di kawasan Puncak dan lo merasa udah dingin tanpa pake AC ya silahkan ga pake AC :D
- Diskusi sama orangtua, apa boleh kost yang campur cewe cowo atau spesifik cuma kosan perempuan/kosan laki laki aja.
- Ketika pertama kali survei kosan, perhatikan apakah pemilik kosan berkediaman di dekat kos, atau apakah penjaga kosan tinggal di dalam kos. Nilai secara cepat juga bagaimana sifatnya saat menjamu kita, keramahan dan reaksinya. Tentunya ga bakal nyaman kalau pemilik kosan rese, atau ga fleksibel.
- Cek luas kamar, bayangkan dengan barang yang bakal kamu bawa.

- Tanya harga, sesuaikan dengan budget kamu.
- Cek kamar mandi. Kamar mandi luar sedikit banyak berpengaruh kalau berada di kosan campur. Karena biasanya kaum adam agak cuek hehehe Lihat kebersihannya, apakah air selalu keluar dari keran atau cuma jam tertentu? Siapkan diri untuk membersihkan kamar mandi sendiri dan mengatasi baunya kalau kamar mandi ada di dalam kamar hehe :D
- Bertanya jam malam. Dan apa ada alternatif lain kalau ada keperluan khusus yang memungkinkan kita melewati batas jam malam.
- Tanyakan sistem pembayaran kosan. Perbulan atau pertahun. Sudah termasuk biaya listrik atau belum. Sudah termasuk biaya Internet atau belum. Apakah memiliki fasilitas cuci setrika pakaian? Kapan tanggal pembayaran. Apakah terkena denda jika telat membayar? Bolehkan diTransfer atau harus cash?
- Tanyakan apakah teman lawan jenis boleh main ke kosan. Beberapa kosan perempuan melarang lawan jenis main ke kosan. Tanya batas mana teman boleh bermain.
- Tanyakan apakah boleh jika ada saudara/teman/orangtua menginap. Berapa hari maksimal. Atau jika terkena Fee atau biaya menginap, berapa biayanya?
- Jika kamu membawa kendaraan apakah kosan menyediakan tempat parkir? Apakah teman boleh memarkir kendaraan juga? Apa ada yang menjaga tempat parkir?
- Tanya apakah ada dapur atau kulkas. Beberapa anak ingin dapur buat masak. Biasa anak kosan, ngirit.. hehe
- Tanya apa ada aturan lain yang berlaku.

Yaa itulah tadi beberapa tips untuk anda sekalian yang baru mau memulai kehidupan kosan, atau sedang mencari cari kosan. Menurut pengalaman gue sih, pemilihan kosan dengan pembayaran pertahun terlalu beresiko. Kalo sewaktu waktu ga betah, entah sama keadaannya, teman kos atau bahkan sama pemiliknya, bakal makan hati sampe nunggu kontrak setahun abis hehe (curcol :p). Kejadian yang sering terjadi adalah : Kosan enak, temen enak, yg punya rese. Atau yg punya baik tapi temen kosannya rese hehe

Take your time to choose, pal !
xoxo,
Ande~

Sendal? Cinta?

2011-09-14T15:10:00.000+07:00

Oke, spesial untuk posting kali ini gue ga bakalan pake bahasa Inggris.
Kenapa Spesial? Karena tadi pagi gue mimpi. Mimpi yang aneh sebenernya. Dan gue menerka mimpi gue ini gara gara sebelum tidur baca tweetnya Bang RadityaDika Grr. Perhatian, jangan membaca tweet bang Radit kalo ngga mau pas tidur mimpi aneh aneh Mueheheh. Baiklah sebelum gue lupa detail mimpinya, izinkan saya bercerita hueheheh

Jadi entah darimana ceritanya gue lagi makan makan bareng temen temen, dan udah malem aja gitu, terus gue main ke kosannya Bang Radit. Disini Bang Radit posisinya adalah pacar gue (ceilah). Nah entah kenapa, disana gue dicuekin. Dia malah asyik ngobrol sama temen gue. Otomatis gue kesel dan langsung nanya sama dia, kenapa gue dicuekin segala. Objek yang ditanya cuma mesam mesem aja. Trus dia liat hape dan tiba tiba gue ngomong : "Bang, bukannya elo pacarnya Herfiza Novianti ya?". Dia pun langsung nyengir lebar, dengan entengnya bilang "Iya, hehe".
Gue pun kesel, gue marah dan pergi dari situ. Dia juga ngejar gue, tapi entah kenapa dia sempet mampir ke toko kelontong buat beli sesuatu.

Setelah dia berhasil ngejar gue, kebetulan ada temen satu SMA nya manggil dia. Jadilah kita bertiga ada dalam satu obrolan :
Bang Radit (BRD) : "Lo masi inget kan sendal itu?" nunjuk sendal di dalem kantong keresek yang dibawa temennya.
Temen (T) : "Ini sendal yang lo pengenin itu kan, yang punya gue." sambil nenteng keresek yang isinya sendal. Disitu gue masih kebingungan.
BRD : "Gini loh Ande, " sambil ngeliatin keresek yang dia bawa. "Dulu gue pengen banget sendal yang dipake temen gue itu," sambil ngeliat keresek temennya.
"Tapi waktu gue pake, malah luka di kaki gue, lecet lecet semua." Tampangnya sedih pas bilang kalimat barusan.
"Nah, akhirnya gue beli sendal yang ini." Sambil kasi liat sendal yang dia bawa.
"Ternyata gue lebih nyaman sama sendal yang baru ini daripada sendal temen gue barusan. Sama halnya dengan cinta, walaupun lo pengen banget pacaran sama dia, tapi setelah lo coba dan elo malah sakit, ternyata ada cinta lain yang bisa bikin lo nyaman, padahal awalnya lo ngga kepengen sama sekali."
DEGGGG.

That's the sweetest thing of broke up that i ever heard.

Jadi cara Bang Radit dalam menyampaikan apa yang dia rasa dengan perumpamaan sederhana itu yang 'ngena' banget ke gue. Simpel, nggak ribet, dan langsung. Seketika gue sadar saat itu juga. Cinta ngga bisa dipaksakan, terkadang ngga bisa seperti yang kita mau, setelah dicoba dan merasakan apakah rasa sakit atau kenyamanan yang kita dapat baru kita menyadari, dan memilih. Ya kan Bang Radit? :) :D

So Much celebrate in late August

2011-09-09T16:32:00.000+07:00

I'm really sorry for a really late blog update hiks
i'm about almost 2 months at home now, and busy playing The Sims all days hehehe
So much to celebrate in August at my country.
First, i wanna say :

Dirgahayu Indonesia-ku yang ke 66 :D

yeah, it's Indonesia Independence Day!
i hope my country having less corrupcy, and more prosperity :*

Second, Happy Ied Mubarak for Muslims ! :D
تَقَبَّلَ اللّهُ مِنَّ وَ مِنْكُمْ
May Alloh receive our prayers, forgive our sins, bless us always, and may Alloh gives us the best, Amiin :)

Like the Majority of Indonesian Citizen at Ied Mubarak holiday, me and family went to Granma's house for a couple weeks. Although the trip isn't really fascinating, but i do enjoy several moments :)
Finally i watched Transformers 3 Dark of The Moon on 3D with my family!
yeayyyyy :D

it was really cool, somehow i'm captivated by the ultra great graphic of the robots and wondering to have a car like Bumble Bee :*

and we went to Malang and visited Toko Oen ^^

Toko Oen in Malang has stood since the year 1930, with colonial style furniture add to the uniqueness of its authenticity is still guarded Toko Oen is also very famous for its ice products. Toko Oen is famous by its home made ice cream that has the same formula from old era. But for me, the price isn't worth it hehe Unfortunately i didn't capture the ice cream, but here's the rest :)

aaak, sorry for my un-makeup face hiks

catch you later in the next post!

Stella Lee's OPI Giveaway Sponsored by DuniaKutek

2011-09-09T09:01:00.003+07:00

Hello all !
We all know that OPI brands are sure a cute way to shining our nails :)
Sooo, i've a really good news for you, Stella Lee is giving OPI Giveaway Sponsored by DuniaKutek ! Yippiee~
All you have to do is visit here for more info, and don't forget to visit Dunia Kutek for more cool OPI nail polish :)

Good luck everyone!

Curling Time!

2011-07-08T19:03:00.005+07:00

currently listening @The Bird and the Bee - Again and again

i have a video downloaded from Youtube about how to curling your hair without Iron. this is all i need because my hair was straighten on the salon about 2 years ago and still afraid of getting a permanent chemical on it.
sooo, i recommended you to this post because it will not harm your hair, and don't worry if you don't want your straight hair become wavy cuz your hair is gonna be back normal after you wash it with shampoo.

credits to Michelle Phan

For those who have dense hair like me, i prefer adding rubber band after doing all step on the video. tied up rubber band on your rolled hair so it will not fall even you go to sleep. usually i do it after evening bath, and take it off at the morning.

my curly hair

my profile picture ^^

so, maybe it's a lil bit complicated and not instant, but it will not damage your hair :) Don't forget to visit Michelle Phan Page , you'll found more beauty tips ;)
okay, see you in the next post!

xoxo,
Ande..

chit chat at the evening ^^

2011-07-08T16:20:00.003+07:00

currently listening @ 2NE1 - i am the best

Hello Pals!
sorry for my really long hiatus hehe
there are so much things that passed such as my final exam semester (Yeaay! Finally ^^), Jakarta Great Sale (which is almost ended at 17th July).
as a Discount lover, what did i get on this month of sale?
hahaha nope, i just couldn't find stuffs that fitted me up, this is so unexpected from me, right? hahaha
back in couple days ago me and friends go to Pekan Raya Jakarta, and i bought this cutie pink sleeping eye mask!

a fluffy sleeping eye mask!

the fluffy sleeping eye mask is something i wanted for a long time and fortunately i found this as a perfect! hehe

i'm already on my holiday after final exam and i'm free for about 2 months and a half. yesterday i bought a cdma usb modem, and fool me to not realized that i don't have any cdma phone to activate my number! Gosh! and i realized it after already come dorm zzz

i already preparing some movies (dowloading while i'm still at dorm and watch it at home), and installing The Sims Ambitions games as an addition to my The Sims 3 and The Sims World Adventour (which is i don't play it yet) thanks to Tyas who installing it for me!
(pssst.. i still have RollerCoaster Tycoon 3 platinum and Singles 2 Muahahah)
i wanna take a several pics for my next project too, some diet programs, and take drive lesson with daddy <3

also, couple days from now, maybe in Sunday (if daddy cancel to go to Ciater Bandung) i'll go from my dorm, and found another one in the next semester. Actually this dorm is really nice, strategic, homey, friendly gals, and for daddy : nice parking. But we are all have problems with the owner.

the owner seems so stingy, talk bad behind us to other people, well it made me so sick being here. so tomorrow i'll starting to packing my stuffs out :)
i hope to get a new better dorm than here, thanks for all memories that i've got in here anyway :)

i'll post more when my modem is going well, see ya!

xoxo

Ande..

Summer Time!

2011-07-04T12:52:00.002+07:00

currently listening @ f(x) Hot Summer

Summer time is coming! and the air is really hot~
Well on June and July there are so much Great sale on Jakarta, and one of opportunities is by join the Sonia Eryka's blog giveaway ! Yeaaay! :D
you can straight go to the link : here
there are some cute stuffs, vintage dress, shoes, bag, so many fashion stuffs that made you ready for this summer! xD
By the way, i want to say Happy 18th Birthday to Sonia! Wish all your dreams come true, sweetie ;)

and finally, don't forget to join the Giveaways pals!

xoxo

Ande..

a brief of Nail

2011-05-06T01:03:00.002+07:00

currently listening @Olivia Ong - random songs

Heyya pals, not a long time ago i'm playing with nail polish when got nothing to do hehehe

pinky with Tammia

Daring Red on my foot with unbranded nail polish

i prefer using Rosary Polish Remover for reducing color change of nail after using nail polish

half of my collection, the rest was left at home - mostly Tammia

finally made a black one on my index finger !

Mostly i use Tammia Brand for no reason, i remember when i was on elementary school my Mom bought me a red color of Tammia and it still lasted 'till now :)

and in coincidence my friends gave me several nail polish by Tammia as my birthday present!

I liked to having a soft color on my hands and the reverse, a bold one on feet, which is make your feet outrageously shocking :)

Too bad i don't taking photos while my feet using high heels :(

But just for your information, nail polish do make your fingers/feet looking colorful but nails need a time for breath taking with no polish on it, make it bare for a little time, pals, for our healthier nails :)

Be back again, keep on shining! :D

The origin of - Andelumud.

2011-03-28T00:10:00.002+07:00

currently listening @ David Archuleta - a little too not over you

Time for revealing why most of my internet alias named "Andelumud".

In my country, many morons people made lumud means LUcu dan iMUD, (fun and cute, in a moron way). but it's not what i really into. i'm a Javanese, they have a folklore about a boy named Ande Lumut, who has a high pride about a girl that he chosen as a wife.

So, a long time ago, Ande Lumut seeking a wife. This Ande Lumut was handsome, rich and from well known family. He was made girls go crazy for the seeking. There was a family with a mother and three daughters. First daughter named Red Klenting and the second daughter named Green Klenting is somewhat bully the youngest, Yellow Klenting. in the middle of the way to meet Ande Lumut, Red Klenting and Green Klenting have to passed a big river. and then a Yuyu Kangkang (a crab) offering to help them but as the prize, he wants to kiss them. it happens on every girl who want to passed the river. when Yellow Klenting want to passed the river, she don't want to be kissed by Yuyu Kangkang. with her magical power she can passed the river without any help of YuYu Kangkang. when Red and Green Klenting arrived at Ande Lumut's house, he did not want to come down from the tree. when he's mom asked why, he said because they were kissed by Yuyu Kangkang. But when Yellow Klenting arrived, he knows that she was not kissed by Yuyu kankang, so they lived happily ever after.

when i was child, my granma sang an ande ande lumut song. it was nice. once i ask my mom why i'm being called "Ande", she said that it's a uniquely name and people rarely have it. So i want you to be unique from the others :) Wow, Love you Mom! *Smooch*

Although Ande ande lumut was a boy hehehe i don't regret it :)

He was handsome and has a high pride for what he choose :)

As a folklore, they have so many - little difference stories, but the point is still the same, I thought :)

Well, think twice before you called me "Alay" , 'cuz you don't know where it comes from :)

Cheers!

Goodie Bag !

2011-03-10T00:59:00.006+07:00

Currently listening @ Maximum The Hormone - Chu chu lovely muni muni mura

Konbanwa Minna san!*(Good Evening all !)

Suddenly i'm talking like a Japanese People today hahaha

It's happening now a Matsuri (means a japanese festival :p) at my university and today they having a hair cut Demo presented by Shunji Matsuo by HISATO , kyaaaa~ >.<

i have just come out from class, and looking from upstairs how they japanese people, cutting out some student's hair, and i'm definitely so damn excited to look them closely :D

wheww, i wish i were there, cutted by them :'(

actually, they have a performance tomorrow, but in hair coloring :( i'm so damn want it but, to think that my BF and mommy will not liked it, so i refuse to join, eww, so bad i can't join it! and the best part is, it was FREE! Dammit! :(

they having a Demo 'cuz Shunji Matsuo have a new Salon at Central Park named One Piece :) Great hair studio with a cozy modern place, and a professional team from Japan of course!

maybe someday if i have my own money i will go there n_n

I realized the way Hisato gripped a scissor is a professional do, he gripping it with his thumb and annulary. Reminds me of Beauty Pop manga :)

suddenly the enchor giving a Quiz with a Goodie Bag Prize, Maryati pushed me *Grrr so i answer the questions anyway, with a help from my friends xD

aaaand, the present isss :

i know my photo was creepy, tsk!

goodie bag,a work book, map, notes, peace chocolate spray, little green frame, and a heart shape (maybe used for nail? LOL)

The best part of the presents is Arimino Peace Chocolate Spray xD i heard hairdressers in Shunji Matsuo mostly likes using Arimino products from Japan. Well i'm proud of having it xD

lil cubicle pattern on the front side, kewll !

with a totally Japanese alphabets, i almost not understand what exactly kind of product it is. But with a little trying, i found an explanation. This is Peace Chocolate Spray from Arimino hair products. This is the short review :

The Chocolate Spray is a unique product, designed to protect hair when used with thermal tools. The spray closes down the cuticle and leaves a beautiful shiny finish. Also works wonders on wavy or curly styles. Hair maintains hold and shine without becoming frizzy or fly-away.

Use on towel-dried hair. Hold can upright and spray 8-10 inches from hair roots to ends, set hair into desired style. Spray on dry hair, section by section, prior to the use of thermal tools.

My hair is a typical wavy and bold, last year i took a hair smoothing to straighten, but lately it came back to normal, puffy hair :'( So, yes i am interested in Salon and hair treatment. Feel so lucky to have this, hopely it could help me :)

peace out !

at high school i joined a Japanese Club, and now with a lot of college activity made me a little forget about Japanese stuff :(

Well, this is reminds me a lot :)

These all for today, pals!

On saturday i'll be heading for Bina Nusantara 30th Anniversary at Indosiar - wish you seeing me on TV *_*

Catch you soon!

P.S. : I love this new increase at editing new post services in blogger. Help me a lot ! Keep on evaluating, be better :)

My little Art

2011-03-05T23:11:00.015+07:00

Here there are, My Art in my spare time, Enjoy!
currently listening @ BigBang - Tonight

Must be watched!

2011-02-10T10:22:00.011+07:00

currently listening @ CNBlue - i'm a loner

Exam was over, it's time for : Holiday! :D

Today i started to Oatmeal breakfast 'cuz i've gained some weigh recently. No need to mention how much, but i think this is time

to get a new healthy life :)

My so-called Diet plan :

- Oatmeal breakfast

- Rice, Vegetables, meat, and fruits at lunch

- Rice, vegetables, meat and fruit juice at dinner before 6pm

and don't forget to doing exercise at least once in 2 days.

I hope my plan run well !

Lately i can't get my eyes off from Family Outing. Can't stop laughing all day when i see it.

In Family Outing we can found permanent actors and actresses who will be on scene every episodes and a guest actor/actress who different in each episode. They'll lived in a traditional house in korean village to do some tasks like harvesting and so many more. there're interactive games after did the task. The actor was very funny, they have their own behaviour and personality.

One that you should watch too is We Got Married. i really like the season 2, part of YongHwa - CNBlue and Seohyon SNSD.

They lived as a wife and husband, and doing something cute together. Aaah, i'm so jealous of them :'(

those are a very recommended reality show from korea, you should try to watch it, Pals ! :)

Keep healthy and Happy watching!

a bit relaxation in a middle of final exam

2011-02-03T22:49:00.011+07:00

currently listening @ Randomly songs, Serenade Lounge Jazz Album

Hello There, Happy 2011 New Year folks! (sorry for always late to tell in my blog :p). Hope you all get a new better life, God bless always! :)
Today, in Indonesia we have a Lunar New Year or mostly my friends said "Sin Cia" in china language. Happy Lunar New Year, Friends!

well, like the title above, i'm in the middle of final exam on a tough semester. Hope i get a good score, Amin!

Happy Birthday to my Brother at December! You're growing up now, i hope you mind your behaviour :p

I am debt for story in Singapore - Malaysia, i have it on my mind, and soon after this exam i'll reveal it *can't wait to tell you all :D:D*

and i wanna put some of my work art, 'cuz my boy said that my art was seen on a web without my permission. So i want to make it legal in this blog. Fortunately i made a watermark. I'll post it soon, then :)

I'm starting to watch Family Outing and Let's Get Married. Both of them are Korean reality show. I'll spread it in next post :D

I have a new project, guys. this is balancing my outcome for shopping, guess what? hehe Since i made an overflowing amount of shopping, i thought i should make it in a better way.

I like to write off what's on my mind on a new unique ways to pour it out, thats why i'm not updating blog for a long time, Sorry Folks hehe you're clever if you knowing place for my escape :p

Enough for tonight, we'll continue after exam, catch you soon, Ciao! :)

Long time no write..

2010-11-25T23:42:00.010+07:00

currently listening @Bigbang - Beautiful Hangover

hello there. long time no write, pals.
there's a plenty of time but so much trouble that i can't spread it along hehe

maybe it's a way too late, but Happy Iedul Fitri and Iedul Adha :)
Happy birthday to me and Mommy :)

mmm, about my promise in here , i'm sorry i couldn't fulfil it well 'cuz in the end i'm not buying any flowery dress nor photo shooting (even i want to).

okay, first, why i'm not buying flowery dress was just because i think my wardrobe for outing photoshoot doesn't need a flowery one, i could pick one of my dresses. and i came along well prepared, from head to toe.
the problem is, always the same when a Lebaran holiday came, my Daddy don't want to stay a little long in granma house (because of mud, exactly). so i don't have a much time there. i'm spending my several days there playing with my little cousin whom i love so much :*

second, about DSLR was just the same. people was so busy so i can't bother them too. well, i think i will have a chance, someday.

about my birthday, things don't went well so i can't describe much.
what is your birthday surprise dream? do you waiting any special presents? well i just hoping God bless you all, and happiness surrounds you :)

about my mom birthday, i planning to give a special presents but difficult to pick. besides, i'm not yet coming home because of mid term test. anyone have an idea?

Iedul fitri went good but in the end i has my menstruation period so i couldn't join the prayer. At Iedul Adha out of nowhere my stomach hurt and i couldn't join the prayer too. How sad i am :'(

i'm in the middle of mid term test now which is so difficult for me.
this semester i don't feel any desire for class even for the subject.
doesn't mean i liked my old class but in my class now the people was divided by a several groups.
guys seems like don't want to playing with gals, the gals have their community. i'm trying to be switzerland, free.

next week i'm going to Singapore and Malaysia for study tour.
while Daddy now is on Italy to working there, i wished he come back soon..

well it's almost 2 am already, i'm starting to feel sleepy..
maybe next i'll upload some photos..
Good night pals, catch you soon :)

Possibility

2010-10-22T22:48:00.001+07:00

愛が途絶えてしまう前
最後の時間

We spent good times and we knew each other
Had this situation changed if we had the possibility
Just talk to me how you think about it
(Why did we say goodbye)

笑顔が好きだった
つまらない冗談も好きだった
近づく不穏な足音
はじめに気づいたのはどっち
何しても四六時中　不安定
溝埋めること放棄した関係
明日になれば他人だなんて
全て消えてしまえばいい

未だ揺れる振り子
最後の望みを辿る糸
なぜ途切れてしまうぷつりと
こんなの胸が張り裂けそう
互いのため試行錯誤して得た覚悟
分かってるけど迷うんだ
本当にこれで良かったのか?
we might've had the possibility

手を差し伸べ頬に触れて
そうすれば体温は一気に　４０゜C
出会った頃の二人は　そんな感じ
でも様変わり
心に潜む毒　中和する言葉は
思い出というフィルター通しても
遠く霞んで見当たらないんだ

未だ揺れる振り子
最後の望みを辿る糸
なぜ途切れてしまうぷつりと
こんなの胸が張り裂けそう
互いのため試行錯誤して得た覚悟
分かってるけど迷うんだ
本当にこれで良かったのか?
we might've had the possibility

危険な予兆丁寧に説明できていたら
些細な誤解とこの結末は　回避できたはず
不透明な態度が致命的
綺麗な記憶として残したいから
この選択しかなかったんだと
ねえ　強くそう思わせて

優しくしないで惨めじゃない・・・
(Don't cry... Don't cry baby)

If I told you that I'm nothing without your love
あなたじゃなければ意味がない

未だ揺れる振り子
最後の望みを辿る糸
なぜ途切れてしまうぷつりと
こんなの胸が張り裂けそう
互いのため試行錯誤して得た覚悟
分かってるけど迷うんだ
本当にこれで良かったのか?
we might've had the possibility

夢見てたんだ
ずっと一緒に
いくつものBirthday重ね
壊れないように
Baby もう叶わないけど
Never gonna change my love

read manga, Lalalaa~

2010-08-19T21:44:00.008+07:00

currently listening @ Heidi - Loop .:. ost. Kaichou wa maid sama

heyya folks now i'll share my list of comics that i've been read hehe
just for your information pals, these are a list of manga that you should read, good recommended from me, there it is..

- Kaichou wa maid sama
- Faster than a kiss
- Goong
- xxx Holic
- Naruto
- Tsubasa reservoir chronicles
- Perfect Girl evolution (Yamato Nadeshiko Shichi Henge/The Wallflower)
- Pure Love Kamikaze Captain (Jun'ai Tokkou Taichou!)
- Parfait Tic
- Fruit basket
- Zettai Kareshi
- Let's get married
- Beauty Pop
- Lovely complex
- I'll (Crazy Kouzu Basketball Club)

actually, there're so much manga(s) i've ever read, even it average story or bad instead.
too much read too much forget haha
but those are my favourite :)
and i have a memory with this manga : Le Potrait de Petit Cossette.
because of that manga, i talked with my boy in our first acquaintence a long time ago hehehe

btw, im in love with Usui Takumi, the main boy from manga and anime Kaichou wa maid sama. Love the anime too xD

Usui kuuuun~ xD

curious? you better to start reading it xD

unfortunately OneManga, website for read free manga online is no longer active, so i moved to MangaFox :)

Happy reading manga, Pals!
xoxo

Dirgahayu 65 tahun Indonesia-ku

2010-08-18T18:02:00.005+07:00

diiringi lagu : Hari Merdeka.

postingan ini saya lakukan sembari berbuka puasa hehehe
selamat berbuka puasa bagi yang melaksanakan :)
walaupun terlambat satu hari, tetapi lebih baik terlambat daripada tidak sama sekali, saya ingin mengucapkan :

Dirgahayu Republik Indonesia yang ke 65.

jika menengok ke beberapa postingan saya sebelumnya, kebanyakan menggunakan bahasa inggris sebagai bahasa penulisan utama. sebenarnya tidak ada alasan khusus, saya cukup baik dalam berbahasa Indonesia. maka kali ini, untuk kesempatan yang spesial ini, saya akan menulis postingan dalam bahasa indonesia, bahasa negara saya.. (hahaha bangga :D)

orangtua saya orang indonesia asli. ayah dan ibu keduanya beretnis jawa. dan sejak lahir hingga di umur saya yang hampir 19 tahun ini, saya (alhamdulillah) masih betah tinggal di Indonesia :)

terlepas dengan apa yang saya alami selama hidup hampir 19 tahun di Indonesia tercinta, sempat mengalami Krisis Moneter, berduka atas Bom Bali, tersayat dengan Tsunami Aceh, dan Lumpur Lapindo yang memakan area tempat kelahiran saya, saya tetap bersyukur menjadi salah satu bagian dari rakyat Indonesia.

Walaupun dengan kondisi pemerintahan yang selalu terdapat gonjang ganjing, inflasi yang tidak pasti, kurs Dollar yang melonjak tinggi, maraknya trend dunia maya, hingga konflik UN melanda negeriku yang telah berumur 65 Tahun.

Dalam tahun ke 65 kemerdekaan RI kali ini, bertepatan dengan berlangsungnya ibadah puasa ke 1431 Hijriah bagi umat Muslim. saya tidak mengetahui pasti bagaimana pelaksanaan perayaan yang dilakukan pada tiap wilayah untuk menyambut HUT RI kali ini karena kebetulan saya sedang berada di kos dan belum mendapatkan laporan keadaan di sekitar rumah (biasanya saya dimintai bantuan untuk menjadi panitia lomba di dekat rumah.. hehe)

Perlu diakui, memang, nilai sejarah saya ketika di bangku sekolah tidak terlalu memuaskan. akan tetapi saya mengetahui gigihnya para pejuang yang mempertahankan tanah air dari penjajah. dan kini, di umurnya yang ke 65, apakah yang dapat kita lakukan sebagai penerus bangsa?

Belajar, menjadi orang berilmu lalu membantu negara ini sedikit demi sedikit sehingga tidak menjadi terpuruk, mungkin salah satu ide yang baik. saya sebagai mahasiswa, hingga kini, jujur saja masih terdapat rasa malas jika dihadapkan dengan kata belajar. Di ulang tahun RI yang ke 65 ini bisa menjadi salah satu dorongan semangat bagi saya untuk lebih giat dalam menuntut ilmu. sebagai salah satu pengabdian yang saya lakukan pada negara, untuk meneruskan perjuangan pahlawan yang telah mengorbankan harta, fikiran, tubuh, jiwa serta darah mereka demi negara tercinta.

Dirgahayu, negaraku Republik Indonesia ke 65.

chop-ing money (read : shopping, uhuk)

2010-08-10T21:44:00.006+07:00

Gosh, in the afternoon, i saw several photos with Summery theme, flowery dress which is remembering me bout my grandma's house who had a lotta plants, and it surely became a great place to take a photoshoot (it was a photo studio instead, LOL)
and then im begin to search flowery dress on the facebook online shop, well just as im expected, im fall for another cutie dress, oh my..
there are some dresses which is having an under 100k price, and that was soo mouthwatering *slurpy*
in fact im a fastidious person, especially for picking a wardrobe, then i do some online shop facebook's sweeping :p

back to my grandma's house, this is the last visit, cuz the Sidoarjo's mud that took all of the area.
so i have to wisely use this last chance to take a photoshoot ( i mean a real photoshoot session) in my granma house, i'll borrow my uncle's DSLR to be equipment for photo session including the object of photo :D
maybe next time i'll upload some scenery of my granma's house :)

im always interested in lace dress, it looks like a sweet simple girl xD
i want to have a fedora hat, hiks we can found it in the Cihampelas curb, Bandung.
but we have to really consider about the differentiation of price, there're several place that having a cheaper price list.
talk about Bandung, somehow i miss to shop there, the price is quite friendly (if you could find the spot) and the clothes were so damn stylish :(
but i cant go there because of my short term semester, and no one accompany me, anyone interest? LOL

too much choices, lack of money :p
i started to think bout part time job that can fulfil my desire of shopping (Oh, Girls!)
it's impossible to always take my parent's money just for shopping, and the fact is i love shopping, hiks :(
sooo folks, im searching for an easy part time job, especially if the collegers are welcome :)
just contact me here by facebook message, or comment at my post, just click on the balloon in the right corner of the post title :)
i'll be waiting for your good news soon xD (bout the job, either the clothes :p)

Dance, dance.

2010-07-30T16:43:00.009+07:00

currently listening @ SNSD - Oh!

lately, i have been influenced by my friends.
this is all about SNSD, Girls Generation.

but well, these girls have plastic surgery, so it goes to a perfectly shape.
they have good voice, skinny body, cute face, aaaaandd they dancing! whoa~
but, i noticed one of them named Hyoyeon.

i think she is the coolest dancer in the SNSD, her hobby was dancing and i cant stop watching at this.
but she had plastic surgery too, here it is..

- now and then -

I like dancing, but too shy to perform and too lazy to practice :p
but I was impressed by the great girls in the dance.
so, move your body, pals!

Rangkaian kata dari B.J. Habibie

2010-06-26T21:16:00.005+07:00

Sebenarnya ini bukan tentang kematianmu, bukan itu.

Karena, aku tahu bahwa semua yang ada pasti menjadi tiada pada akhirnya,

dan kematian adalah sesuatu yang pasti,

dan kali ini adalah giliranmu untuk pergi, aku sangat tahu itu.

Tapi yang membuatku tersentak sedemikian hebat,

adalah kenyataan bahwa kematian benar-benar dapat memutuskan kebahagiaan dalam diri seseorang, sekejap saja, lalu rasanya mampu membuatku menjadi nelangsa setengah mati, hatiku seperti tak di tempatnya, dan tubuhku serasa kosong melompong, hilang isi.

Kau tahu sayang, rasanya seperti angin yang tiba-tiba hilang berganti kemarau gersang.

Pada airmata yang jatuh kali ini, aku selipkan salam perpisahan panjang,

pada kesetiaan yang telah kau ukir, pada kenangan pahit manis selama kau ada,

aku bukan hendak mengeluh, tapi rasanya terlalu sebentar kau disini.

Mereka mengira aku lah kekasih yang baik bagimu sayang,

tanpa mereka sadari, bahwa kaulah yang menjadikan aku kekasih yang baik.

mana mungkin aku setia padahal memang kecenderunganku adalah mendua, tapi kau ajarkan aku kesetiaan, sehingga aku setia, kau ajarkan aku arti cinta, sehingga aku mampu mencintaimu seperti ini.

Selamat jalan,

Kau dari-Nya, dan kembali pada-Nya,

kau dulu tiada untukku, dan sekarang kembali tiada.

selamat jalan sayang,

cahaya mataku, penyejuk jiwaku,

selamat jalan,

calon bidadari surgaku …

another chit chat at saturday night

2010-06-19T18:29:00.004+07:00

currently listening @ Landon Pigg - Falling in love at a coffee shop.

in the next several days i will facing up semester final exams.
but now, oh my god i still laying down on the bed.
it's not because im sick, but the laziness fill me in huehehe
i think i need a work out too, some exercise would be better.
in my previous days, i heard some people of my class said something bad bout my friends.
he said it straight beside of me.
gosh, i really wanna yelled at him : "Heh! put your mouth shut up, jerk!"
you could be clever, an lab assistant, having a plenty of friends , but if you can't keep your mouth clean so you already like a dumbass for me.
i know this was sarkastic, but i started to felt annoyed to them.
their cult walked like, no one way cooler than them.
to be the freakest cult on class, the noisy people, they think they're famous and then the rest of us was underestimated by them. cih!
what the world was they ?

and then i realized that i am a pampered person, but i know when and where to show that kind of attitude, that kind of behaviour.
but around me there are some people who totally do the P.D.A (public display affection).
well, it makes me annoyed, obviously.
im not saying that it is a forbidden to do, but at least couldn't you see where the hell you are now?
making such a P.D.A. will not make you a famous person, the people will gave you an eww-disgusting face.
hey, this is not america! or either a western country !
this is indonesia, the place that you must think before you did!
well, the pampered behaviour makes me so oww-oww-annoying when you show it to public.

then i don't like transparant statuses on the social networking sites.
if you don't want to be the most discussed issue on the class, you better to not to be transparant when using the facilities of statuses.
the outpouring heart made you such a pity person, believe me, i've checked the responses of people who read that kind of it.
couldn't you're not tell it in front of people?
it just made you looks like a weak person.
be struggle!

hhh, enough of chit chat at this lonely saturday night.
i'll going out for returning some comics, and buy the dinner.
catcha' later :")

do you ever being bored?

2010-05-30T12:37:00.007+07:00

sentence like the title above was often felt by me.
college does not need a huge time like a senior high do.
got class in 4 hours and then home, my daily life just circled on college, and assignment, and oftenly made me felt such a boredom.
a deep, deep boredom.

maybe the way out of this situation is take a look for new photograph, editing some photos, maybe chatting or write in this blog, yeah!
well, actually this is one of my activity that i hope killed the boredom.

what do you do in holiday when at home?
what do i do in here when holiday?
perhaps i'll take some hangout at the mall, but i've to save *sigh

here there are, several pics from me :

these pics was my mom's plants. i took it after the rain.

if i were home now, maybe i'll spend my time to chat with my mom, or playing guitar (even i dont know the tunes LOL). playing games on PS2 was quite interesting too.

after thinking, the conclusion is : i need a work out.
some exercises can cheers me up.
all i need is spirit!

oh, come on, try on some activities pals!

suddenly i just wanna write a thing

2010-05-26T12:07:00.003+07:00

currently listening @ the only exception - Paramore.

it's been a long time since the last post hehe
im kinda lazy blogging nowadays.
well, after mid test, i think i could took a breath for a moment.
but in fact, hell no.
things getting rushed , assignments were pouring like the rain LOL xD
by the way, im not a typically girl who can tell something to someone easily.
it means when im write on this insanity blog, then my secret, or at least what i feel right now will be known by the people entire the world *hahaha be exaggerate again*
sometimes , keep it on your own would be a better choice at all.
you can not a hundred percent sure that your secret was handled by someone perfectly.
until now, the one and only person i could tell bout anything was my mommy.
telling everything to her made me being believed for what i was doing outside the house (i had lived in dormitory since senior high, and it goes the same for college)
it isnt like made a hand-upside down, the believing have its own responsibility.
but it just goes by the time, my mom becoming a Superhero mother+bestfriend i ever had in this world.
at least your secret wont spread to the other friends :p
i got something too, we can share experience, i learned from what she has done, and it's pretty interesting.

im re-watching the twilight saga new moon yesterday, to set off all the longing of the story hehe
a great love story, complicated, each of choices has its own risk.
has a different desire, a different taste.
sun and moon.
fire and ice.
oh, i miss the desperate feelings when read it.

btw, check out my tumblr :)

vanilla twilight

2010-03-30T15:57:00.002+07:00

The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere
Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'll send a postcard to you, dear
Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly
The silence isn't so bad
Till I look at my hands and feel sad
Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone
But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist deep in thought because when
I think of you I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone
I don't feel so alone

As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight

I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again
And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh if my voice could reach
back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear:
"Oh darling I wish you were here"

Bon anniversaire, Père :)

2010-03-21T18:27:00.008+07:00

March 21, 2010

daddy since i was born in this world until now, i made too much fault on you. until now, i couldn't make you proud of me. i'm still dissapointed you. made you sad, made you worry of me. made you done a lot of things in my teenager life. made you spending much money on me. in my 18th life, i couldn't giving back anything to you. in your 47th life, i just can make a thousand best wishes for you. perhaps my present doesn't make a sense for you, i know it's not worth it to be given to you. but there're so much things that i will do to make you happy, to make you proud of me. i love you, Daddy :) happy 47th birthday.

best regards,
your daughter,
Andreandana Fitriah.

my text to Daddy :)

sorry i couldn't be there on that day :(

passion of study !

2010-03-18T23:24:00.034+07:00

currently listening @ Random ost. Korean Drama instrumentalist~

gue baru aja kelar nonton Drama Korea God of Study xD .

drama bergenre komedi romantis sekolah ini tayang 16 episode, dan rilis d korea sekitar bulan januari - februari 2010 *fresh from the oven*

ceritanya berpusat pada Kang Suk Ho (Kim Soo Ro), pengacara yang awalnya ingin menutup SMA yang kualitasnya ngga bagus dan muridnya pembuat onar.
Setelah melihat kondisi sekolah itu, Paman Kang merasa prihatin dan mengurungkan niat pembubarannya.
dia malah membuat perjanjian membentuk kelas khusus untuk memasuki Universitas Chun-Ha-Dae (Univ favorit di korea).
Diambillah 5 orang murid, Hwang Baek Hyun (Yoo Seung Ho ), Gil Pul Ip (Go Ah Sung), Na Hyun Jung (Ji Yeon), Hong Chan Doo (Lee Hyun Woo ), Oh Bong Goo (Lee Chan Ho ).
mereka yang awalnya males, dididik dengan keras, dan tumbuhlah persahabatan yang erat diantara mereka.

Film ini dibumbui kisah percintaan khas anak SMA, tips belajar yang cukup efektif, juga memperlihatkan bahwa sesulit apapun keadaan, harus tetap belajar mengejar cita cita.
Ditambah bumbu komedi dan masalah yang terjadi disekitar kita membuat film ini mendekati realita dan ngga terlalu menyajikan janji muluk *nggak sekompleks masalah film lain*

bagian yang bikin gue terharu ada di episode menjelang akhir dimana masalah mulai muncul mendekati ujian sekolah.
dan disini gue baru berpikir bahwa betapa pentingnya didikan guru , baik lo sadari atau engga kalau kesuksesan yang sekarang bisa diraih itu gak jauh bersumber dari jasa guru.

Tentang pengalaman guru killer atau nyebelin sih gue juga pernah ngalamin.
jadi waktu jaman SD gue punya wali kelas, kita sebut aja Mr. D
dia hobinya bawa penggaris kemana mana dan ngagetin semua orang, kita disuru bikin buku jadwal belajar yg harus d sign sama ortu, dan d setor sama dia besoknya.
tampangnya horor abis, dan cara ngajarnya sadis *halah, emang afgan?*
tapi gak bisa gue pungkiri walau gue sering ngatain dia, kesel sama dia, ngomongin d belakang *ampun pak* kalau bukan berkat bimbingan dia, mungkin sekarang gue ngga bakal ngeblog.
karna sebelum dia datang ke kehidupan gue *ceilah* bisa dibilang pola belajar dan prestasi gue ngga sebagus sekarang * bayangin aja, sekarang aja uda ancur. apalagi dulu belum dipermak?*
emang bener banget istilah "Guru adalah Pelita" walaupun gue tau teknologi uda maju dan kita bisa otodidak. tapi tetep, menurut gue istilah diatas paten abis.

after all, gue suka deh sama pemain Hwang Baek Hyun, cool xD

abis nonton Drama ini tiba tiba gue jadi semangat belajar hahaha
special thanks to Meilany who let me borrowed her DVD :)

oiya, buat anak SMA & SMP yang kelas 3 berjuang yaaa buat UN nya!
ugh~ thanks god i've already passed it :D
to my Deta who have a couple weeks until junior high final exam, best wishes for you, my bro !
and for my little boy nonbass voice, be struggle for senior high final exam, and for university test, i wished you the best, my love will accompany you always :)

cheers for the month of exams everybody ! xoxo

face the situation.

2010-03-07T17:53:00.010+07:00

currently listening @ owl city - hello seattle.

pernah ngga sih lo ngerasa bahwa diri lo itu engga banget lah, atau nilai ip lo ga memuaskan, keadaan fisik lo kurang dibandingin sama yang lain, dan banyak lagi hal yang bikin lo engga enak, nggak nyaman, nggak pede.

dan sekarang gue mengalaminya.

d kampus gue ngga ada remed. apa adanya nilai lo ya itulah harga mati lo. gue yang masih tertatih tatih *uhuk* menjalani dunia perKULIahan, perkampusan, kini tersandung batu kerikil *alah*.

iya, gue nyesel, nyesek banget tau nilai accounting gue mepet banget mendekati nilai min kelulusan, dan gue nggak bisa survive buat itu.
totally regret for the most terrifying score at this language in my whole life : goose laying the golden.

the only one way out : short term.

2 subjects = accounting (4 sks) + english (2 sks)
= 6 sks * 200.000/sks
= 1.200.000 equals head banging.

gue kebingungan. mau sidejob ngajar, ngajar apaan? kindergarten?
mau dagang, dagang apaan? dagang jamu? ckck

apa gue gade (baca : gadai) aja nih nokia 5800 gue? hiks hiks

-calon korban-

jujur aja gue takut bilang sama ortu. mereka pasti shock, nilai gue ngga pernah sebegini parahnya. emang gue akuin sejak kuliah gue jadi agak "bandel".
tapi menurut gue itu masih dalam batas yang wajar.
but the result was quite bad instead, hesitated to confess.

apalagi ngeliat temen2 yang dulunya lebih parah dari gue pas senior high, sekarang malah d atas 3 ipnya T.T

anyway, setelah gue bertapa mencari pencerahan, gue nyadar ngga ada gunanya juga ngeles *kaya bajaj* ke ortu. cepat atau lambat, dimarahin atau engga, itu bakal terjadi, bakal ketauan juga.

just hope me find the best way to outta here, pals.
viva short term!

rain, and the sobs.

2010-01-20T19:34:00.009+07:00

currently listening @ Bunga Citra Lestari - kecewa.

im listening this song while reading his wall to wall.

wall to wall bout a girl that he loved, before.

and tears are falling before I knew it.

just, misery.

suddenly comes ahead.

i dont know what happen in that time.

so easily get rid me off his mind.

and replacing me with another girl.

it's hurt when i know you talk to me as the same way as you say to her.

how to fix this feeling?

please tell me then.

when the rain becomes my best friends.

and the tears becomes my soulmate.

little by little i try to find comfort in pain.

and enjoy this feeling,

all alone..

without words

2009-12-18T13:45:00.017+07:00

I shouldnt have done that,
I should have pretended not to know
like I didnt see it, like I couldnt see it
I shouldnt have looked at you in the first place

I should have run away,
I should have pretended I wasnt listening
like I didnt hear it, like I couldnt hear it
I shouldnt have heard your love in the first place

Without a word you made me know love
Without a word you gave me love
Because you took just a breath and ran away like this
Without a word love leaves me
Without a word love abandons me
Wondering what to say next, my lips were surprised
Because it came without a word.

Why does it hurt so much?
Why does it hurt continuously?
Except for the fact that I can’t see you anymore
And that you’re not here anymore
Otherwise it’s the same as before

Wondering what to say next, my lips were surprised

SELF RESPECT

2009-12-11T02:19:00.015+07:00

currently listening @ olivia ong - fly me to the moon.

beberapa hari ini gue ngerasa down banget.
dari nilai UTS yang uda keluar, and as im expecting at first, gue kurang puas sama hasilnya.
iya, emang sistem belajar SKS tuh nggak banget.
gak maksimal juga hasilnya.
jadi hikmah yang gue ambil dari kejadian ini adalah : ya jangan diulangin belajar sks gitu.
kedua, jangan terlalu down juga ngadepinnya. let it flow aja. iya, emang gue nyesel dan desperate pas tau kenyataannya, tapi kalo terlalu dipikirin juga, nilai lo gak langsung ajaib berubah jadi seratus kan?
so make it a lil bit worthy.
face it, dan mendingan lo pikirin step apa yang bakal lo ambil selanjutnya buat nutupin nilai jelek lo itu :)

um , let's talk about self respect..
keinginan buat merasa baik sama orang lain, dan menyingkirkan sikap egois yang ada dalam diri emang bagus sih.
berusaha menjadi yang terbaik bagi orang lain, menyingkirkan ego dan emosi yang ada untuk mencapai situasi yang nyaman (baca : peaceful)
kita berusaha untuk menghargai orang lain and it's really good.

but, in several condition, have we considered ourself?

i cant pretending that sometimes i need a private time alone.
ini waktunya kita punya SELF RESPECT .
sayang sama diri sendiri, kapan lagi?
sekali dua kali egois untuk kebaikan diri sendiri wajar kok, asal tau batas.
dan ini sepertinya harus gue camkan dalam sanubari *hahaha*

Oase di padang pasir..

2009-09-02T22:37:00.004+07:00

Currently listening @ Maliq n d’essentials – mata hati telinga.

Tadinya hari ini gue sekeluarga mau jalan k salah satu mol d tangerang, yg letaknya deket banget sama UPH itu. tapi gue uda kelar beberes rumah, ko’ heran liat bokap yg uda rapi, firasat mau cabut dia. Waah, padahal kan uda janji ama gue.Gue dateng, dan ngobrol. Straight to the point : “papa kan janji mau ajak jalan k mol pa?” kata gue. Nah, dari sini, dimulailah obrolan singkat yang membukakan mata gue, memberi pencerahan dalam pola pikir, layaknya oase d padang pasir, menggebrak ego yang mengkungkung diri. *sudah cukup berhiperbolisnya hahaha*

Ini tentang masa depan jangka pendek yang bakal gue alamin satu minggu lagi : kuliah.
Sesuatu yang lebih signifikan : finansial. Gue ini berada d middle point. Gue bukan tipikal orang yang pake baju Zara & Moschino k kampus, nenteng tas LV & Hermes, jalan pake sepatu Charles & Keith, dan seabrek merek ternama lainnya. I’m just an ordinary girl. Beli apa” nunggu diskon terpampang di kompas, atau nunggu bazaar. Uang kuliah satu semester senilai 12juta++ ditambah biaya kosan dan biaya hidup satu bulan equals head bang. Gue jadi mikir, apa gue terlalu memaksakan kehendak buat kuliah disini? Tanpa mikirin gimana susahnya ortu cari duit buat biaya kuliah. Adek gue taun depan masuk sma, itu juga perlu biaya lumayan..

Bokap gue ngasi rincian finance yang dia buat. Dan dia nyaranin, supaya lebih bisa ngurangin hal yang ga penting. Example : jalan” hari ini. Sebentar lagi lebaran, dan butuh dana besar buat mudik. Ini bener” ngebuka mata gue. Gue harus hard work, kuliah yang bener, dan tentu aja cari side job. Ngga bisa main main juga. Seperti kata kaka kelas gue : “gue inget tujuan hidup & impian buat ngatasin rasa jenuh.” Situasi sekarang harus jadi lecutan pikiran, hati, dan fisik gue, untuk berusaha lebih keras lagi jadi orang yang mandiri. Dan tentunya, bertanggung jawab.

Off to our reality, semangat Jang Di di serial drama BBF yang barusan gue tonton, dan ketegaran Bella di serial Twilight Saga yang gue baca, sedikit banyak pengaruh k motivasi untuk berjuang. Dan tujuan hidup gue dalam jangka pendek ini adalah : nulis cerpen. Yang nantinya bakal gue kirim k majalah. Lumayan buat jajan *haha*

Sooo~ happy saving! and live thrifty, pals !

Jangan ngebangunin naga yg lg tidur..

2009-08-29T10:59:00.005+07:00

gue barusan aja kelar sahur, trus misahmisuh perang dunia ke adek laki” gue. Pegangan gue Cuma idealisme “umur segini pantas emosi, masi labil” gitu. *emang gue umur berapa sih?* eniwei, jadi ceritanya sementara nunggu azan subuh, gue nongkrong di depan tipi, niatan mau nonton OKA (olga, komeng, adul). Baru mencet remot tipi, cenel 1, cenel 2, ce… zZz tau tau gue terseret ke alam bawah sadar *jangan” bokap di sebelah gue diam” uda privat sama romi rafael*. gue ngantuk gara” browsing internet sampe jam 1 malem. Tidur gue asoi banget, ga da mimpi, ga da bebunyian. Pokonya asoi geboy banget dah.

Tiba” gue terlonjak ngedenger suara orang screaming. Anjrit, kaget mampus gue. Di tengah” ketidaksadaran, kicep kicep gue liat jam menunjukkan jam 5 kurang. Wah, brati kaga kedengeran azan.. pergilah gua mencari cari asal suara heboh itu. terlihat sekelebat bayangan putih ngacir di depan gue. Dan astaganaga, ternyata ade gue dengan tidak berperikegue’an nyetel winamp kompi dgn suara ajib ajiban gedenya itu. mana lagunya screaming semua. Kacau.

gue kecilin volume speaker, dan makhluk itu lewat slonong boy sok gaya cool bilang “solat luh”. Bonyok gue tidur, gue juga tidur, Cuma dia yang sadar. Tapi ko otaknya ngga mikir gitu, nyetel musik kenceng pagi buta gini. Adu bacot sesi 1, dia alesan ‘biar lagunya kedenger sampe kamar mandi’. Gue ngeliat posisi anduk (handuk, bukan budi anduk) acak”an, timbul emosi. Mulailah adu bacot sesi 2. gue yang mulai hilang kesabaran, mulai ngemeng sarkas, nyelekit, ngeliat bacotan kebodoamatan dia. Hasilnya, dia kabur mandi. Gue sempet ngeliat jam, ajib, ternyata hampir jam enam, brarti tadi gue salah liat jam. Ckck *mule ngga waras*

selama dia mandi, gue bales dendam. Gue kunci pintu kamar, padahal seragam die di kamar gue haha *ketawa setan* gua lanjut tidur dah. Mule lagi kedengeran suara gedoran pintu berisik. Gue diemin. Beberapa detik berlalu, gue takut satu kampung bangun, akhirnya gue bukain. Dimulailah adu bacot session 3. gua udah mule ngungkit salah” dia. Dia uda jengah gitu, dengan tampang sok gak peduli. Perdebatan sampe daerah sensitif, kepercayaan sebagai kaka ade yg uda dibina selama ini *halah* jarang banget gue berantem, paling berkomplot. Tapi kejengkelan nyokap atas kelakuan dia yang makin “menyendiri” itu lama” bikin gue kesel juga. Dan terjadilah hal itu. gue sangka atep kamar bocor, waktu ada aer netes ke muka gue. Pas gua cek ternyata ngga ujan, ternyata gue nangis..

oke kawan”, problematika nangis membatalkan puasa itu masi belum sinkron. *at least gue ngga ngejilat air mata saking kehausannya, trust me*. Adu bacot session 3 berakhir dengan berangkatnya dia ke sekolah.

Jangan ngebangunin naga yg lagi tidur.. itu yg kepikir d otak gue. Karna otak gue ini belum sinkron saat baru beroperasi. Perlu pemanasan gitu. ini terbukti pas tadi gue salah liat jam. Kasus lain, pernah kejadian pas gue bangun tidur jam 11 pagi, masi d bulan romadhon. Nyokap uda sabar” ngebangunin, gue yg “agak” tau diri langsung nyamber cucian piring, niatnya mau bantuin. Tapi karna emosi gue yg belum stabil, terlintas d otak gue.. “eh, coba deh lempar spon ntu k mangkok, kayanya keren”. Beuh, ga pikir panjang, tangan refleks ngelempar spons k cucian. Yg artinya kalo diliat orang yang waras adlah : “wah, ngamuk kali ini anak”. Nyokap gue spontan kaget. Trus ngerasa sakit hati, nyuci gini aja ko ngga mau gitu, uda kebo banget, bangun jam 11, pikirnya. Dia kesel abis, dan gue dengan tatapan masih kosong bilang, “aku ngga maksud gitu kok ma, aku ngga maksud gitu.” sumpah kea orang bego abis. Abis gitu gue nyesel sumpah. Dan niat gue untuk tobat, semakin berkobar kobar. Gue ngga boleh gini terus, dalem hati gue ngga mau keanehan ini meningkat ke stadium berikutnya. *uhuk*

baidewei, pasti ada hikmah dibalik semua. gue emang tukang molor, dan kebiasaan itu musti kudu wajib dibasmi secepatnya. *setidaknya gue akan mencoba*. dan diperlukan kesabaran buat jadi dewasa.

yeah, saya yakin bisa jadi sabar, dan mikir sebelum ngapa"in. *ketauan ga pernah mikir*
viva brainiac !

here it is..

2009-07-05T23:29:00.004+07:00

heyya~
gue baru aja mengedit edit blog gue ini.
setingan ini lah, setingan itu lah.
but, the result is very nice instead :)
so please enjoy my blog, and sorry if there's still much mistake on it :p
i;m waitin ur comment immediately ! :D

off to our reality, kembali berfungsi dengan normalnya komputer dan jaringan internet gue menyebabkan semakin memaksakan diri gue untuk begadang (hah?)
baru tadi pagi pas gue ngaca di washtafel, and oh my gosh, kenapa mata gue tambah betem aja?
haduuu~
anyone can help me for this problem, please? huhu T.T

and the good news is : gue besok vacation ke bogor.
hahaha, ASYIK.
pengen belanja tas d tajur deh.
kata orang the price is quite cheap there, ayayai !

oiya, hari ini gue ngerasa a lil bit annoying sama cowo d fb.
gue ga kenal dia, tanpa pikir panjang gue confirm aja.
and guess what? cowo yang ngaku orang jogja ini ngelantur ngga keruan dan sok ngejayus.
gila. ilfil abis sumpah.
gue terus terganggu dengan adanya orang ini yang selalu ajak chat gue, dan komen gue.
apaaa sih ni orang sok kenal banget?
rasa rasanya pengen gue REMOVE aja.
what do u think?
should i remove him or not?

well, enough for now.
i've packaging clothes now.
happy holiday!

Levis? Lepis? Lupis?

2009-06-11T15:28:00.004+07:00

listen up : blow my mind – maliq & d’essentials

setelah beberapa hari bersemedi ditemani tv tersayang di rumah, akhirnya gue mulai terpengaruh untuk menyukai film film FTV _lagi*. ngeliat adek cowo gue yang sering banget nonton film model begitu, akhirnya gue terpersuasif juga. overall, yang namanya FTV, pasti ada saat saat dimana kualitas ceritanya ngga menarik buat gue. tapi di suatu malam, bumi gonjang ganjing, ayam berkokok, dan gue melihat suatu keajaiban : cowo bule ganteng. oh my god ! aktingnya gue akuin lucu sih. gaya ngomongnya hampir mirip cinta laura, tapi ngga separah cewek oh baby itu. di penghujung film akhirnya gue mulai menemukan jati diri, melihat titik terang, dan kembali ke jalan yang benar. yah, benar sekali saudara saudara, saya mengetahui namanya ! sungguh keajaiban! serasa menjadi albert einstein yang telah bersusah payah menemukan teori kerelativitasan atomnya, saya bersusah payah menahan kantuk dan menonton FTV itu hingga selesai, hahahaha. sekarang saya telah bergelar : MASTER OF NAME, _{(apaaaa, sih?).}

well, namanya MIKE LEWIS. actually, dengan nilai TOEFL (tanda orang edan fasti lekong) diatas 600 yang telah didapat, saya menemui kebimbangan dalam mengucapkan LEWIS. apakah dibaca seperti LEVIS? (~~lepis~~ li-vais. kalo lewis jadi li-wais?). atau dengan lidah indonesia? (le-wis ~~bae laaah~~.). laper ah, mau makan kue lupis, mas? gampang saja, ketik REG spasi JAWABAN kirim ke 6060. bagi anda yang beruntung, sepaket kotak berisi bom sudah menanti di depan rumah anda._dhuar*

--sosok si bule ganteng, mike—

bunga bermekaran, rumput bergoyang, angin bertiup, merasakan getir getir aneh dalam diri (bukan, itu bukan hasrat untuk buang air besar lagi). betapa beruntungnya mike, karna mendapatkan cinta dariku ini. karna cintaku bukanlah cinta biasaaaa~ jika kamu yang memilikiii~ (oke, stop. kaca tetangga mulai pecah). setelah itu gue langsung curhat ke nyokap tentang mike. responnya bagus, dia suka. dia ngedukung seratus persen dan nanya ke gue kapan seserahan dan tanggal baiknya? oh, well, kidding. dia juga suka akting mike, mimik mukanya lucu. memang nyokap gue ini ada di TKP saat gue mulai memeluk dan menciumi tv dengan brutal saat mike tampil. berujung dengan disepaknya gue secara tidak beradab oleh Deta. yang mengakui motifnya ketika ditanyai kepolisian sektor nevada atas kejadian yang mengakibatkan gue masuk wc (setelah kebelet boker sebelumnya) adalah karna dia tidak rela muka mike yang aduhai tertutup oleh wajah saya yang ga karuan.

setelah dua abad, 150 hari, 30 menit dan 15 detik (dalam skala hitungan spongebob), gue memutuskan sosok mike adalah titik terang dalam pencarian lelaki idaman selama ini. gue menemukan beberapa opini yang menyatakan bahwa film FTV adalah film cheesy, tapi menurut gue enggak kok. beberapa ceritanya sudah cukup bagus untuk dinikmati, layak juga untuk tontonan ringan. buktinya saat ini gue telah menemukan pelabuhan hati gue! (kaya dia mau aja ama lu, nde? hahaaa~) pokoknya viva mike!

mau kuliah dimana yaaa?

2009-01-09T19:38:00.023+07:00

pembicaraan yanglagi hot akhir akhir ini di keluarga gue adalah : kuliah.
iya, kuliah gue mau kemana.
ribet banget deh sumpah.
barusan gue terlibat pembicaraan singkat ama nyokap gua :

nyokap : kalo jadi guru tu enak lho. ngajar cuma beberapa jam. banyak liburnya. uda gitu kalo kuliah di ikip (upi,unj, red*) kayanya mungkin ga terlalu mahal dan repot.
gue : tapi aku ga minat jadi guru.
nyokap : daripada kuliah abis puluhan juta gitu mendingan langsung kerja. jadi guru itu enak.
gue : yauda kalo gittu mama aja yang jadi guru.

huff.
gue kaga mau jadi guru.
titik.

hari ini hari terakhir gue harus mikir. (ketauan ga pernah mikir, haha)
soalnya besok adalah hari terakhir pendaftaran formulir utul/pbs.
setelah hari iini gue mabal sekola gara gara ngurus KTP ke kecamatan. (heran deh gue, jaman sekarang ribet amat pake ke kecamatan segala)
dan untuk hal iini bukap gue melahirkan kata mutiara :

"anak muda jaman sekarang maunya segala sesuatu instan, ngedadak. ga ada yang bener semua"

haha, exactly, gue d omelin, gara gara ngebet pengen bikin KTP dengan waktu tempo yang bentar.
maksa.

ohya, gue nyoba PMDK k unibraw.
wish me luck, guys! amin*

the problem is : jadwal simak UI and pbs UGM barengan.
yak, 1 maret!
geblek*
padahal rencana gue mau nyoba dua duanya.
kampret emank. kesel*

kalo d ugm srada males ngekos jauh.
bete juga dari sma ngekos muluk.
trus gue juga bingung mau ambil apa dsana.
ngga ada yang komputer, gue kepengen yang ada komputernya.
uda mana akuntansi 60 juta lagi, maknyos, jual boil.

kalo d ui juga gue tambah bingung.
uda ngga mungkin gue ambil akuntansi, sama aja bunuh diri saking susahnya, haha

tapi gue pengen nyoba simak.

pengen nyoba try out simak juga.

apa gue beli aja dulu formulir utul ama pbs yak?
tapi nanti gue juga beli formulir simak, nah trus tinggal gue pikir pikir lagi aja gitu.
berarti harus ada yang gue lepas.
harus siap mengalami kerugian.
dan emang banyak yang d korbankan.

padahal gue suka banget sama komputer lhoooo.
pengen masuk binus.
tapi sumpah gga enak banget sama ortu coz mahal.
biaya hidup juga mahal kan.

aduh, i hope i'll find the best result deh.
amiiiin*

how dull ?

2008-12-19T13:46:00.005+07:00

gue lagi kelaperan di warnettt sendirian dikelilingi anak esde.
tadi pagi cuma nyabu en siang ini belom makan.
padahal gue dah ngepaket ngenet selama 4 jam.
gile aje lemes gue disini...dan sekarangbaru jam setengah tiga..
alamak*
laper!!!!!!!!
barusan gue abis ngeview blog salah satu almamater gue d smansa, dia masuk binus, [keren!!]

gue ngeliat postingan dia,, dan ternyata rata rata hampir semua orang telah terinfeksi VIRUS RADITH ! hahaha
tapi entah mengapa semua orang menjadi cerdas, dan gue enggak.
that's the point of ma trouble.
in case selama ini gue berpikir ma english is better than the other friends.
but actually, i'm the loser.
gue berputar didalem batok gue sendiri gitu.
ruangan gue ya cuma disitu situ aja.
pola berpikir gue stuck disitu aja.
what a pity!
not just in english matter, but in knowledge too.
i have to increase my english include my education..
difficult thing*
being regret for :
why i'm not getting english lesson after school?
why i'm not being bookworm?
so many mistake.
huuuuft~

when i look into her blog's, i felt so amazing...
betapa cupunya gue!
nyesel! nyesel!

i need more study hard!

gue pikir selama ini perjuangan gue tuh uda keras banget, notabene daripada yang laen.
but, she made me realize.
how pity me.
great.
with my limited vocabulary, i need more more help!
my grammar so terrible.
my tenses so awful.

apa yang harus d banggain gitu lho??

what will we do now?

keep on stuck in this place,, or keep on going??

keep SPIRIT!!!

[have to learn some other lang too, like japanese and german]
[wish be able to make all clear]

gue ikut nyoba polman astra.
i wish i got the scholar.
in order to be my second chance in college.
but i'm hopeless.
pray for me please..

i think i have to listen several great song.
it will be start from ma step mommy!
heuhehe*

tired, lack of food~

lapeeeeeeeeeeeeer !!

tragedi siang bolong hari jum'at

2008-08-08T16:43:00.005+07:00

aaargh!!!
hari ini ada tragedi tragis!
temen gue, si andini yang tadinya biasa biasa aja.
pulang dengan ceria sekitar abis solat jumatan gitu deh, mengalami kejadian yang gak mengenakkan.

gini ceritanya,
abis ngumpul dan ketawa ketiwi bentar,dia mau balik pulang njemput ibunya.
naik motor sengaja digeber geber.
whuuuussss ajah, cabut.
eh,gue yang lagi bengang bengong malah ngliat kucing kecil ngeguling guling aneh.
kirain knapa tuh kucing,taunya kluar darah gitu.
astaga!
panik gue!
gue langsung triak k anggy,bilang : tuh kucing! kucing!

si anggy yang panik,langsung liatin tuh kucing.
setelah sadar,dia triak k andini.
"Andiniiiiiiii!!!!!!!!!!! baliiiiiiiiiiik! cepetaaaaaaaaan!!!

gila tuh kucing uda berdarah darah gitu aja.
serada tepar tepar gitu.
serem juga ngeliatnya.

akhirnya si andini balik.
dan langsung dikasih tau keadaan si kucing.
gue panik.
anggy panik.
apalagi si andini,lebih parah lagi.

gue langsung bilang gawat. dan gak ngebolehin andini jalan dulu.
takutnya kejadian apa apa gitu.
trus dia langsung mo nangis gitu.
"gue harus ngapain? gue harus ngapain?"
"GUE JUGA GAK TAUUU!!!"
gue ma anggy teriak barengan gitu.
yang diteriakin langsung ngacir ke kantin.
minta pertolongan.
waduh, serada gak enak hati juga teriak kaya gitu.
abis mau gmana lagi?
gue sendiri juga panik.
ngeliatin kucing yang tadinya serada bergerak gerak gitu,malah sekarang nggak bergerak sama skali.
haduuu~
parah nian..
kasian bangeeet.

andini balik tanpa hasil apa apa.
dia nangis sekarang.
ngeliat dia nangis kaya gitu,gue jadi pengen ikutan nangis juga!
huaduh~